When God turned his face away from Jesus when Jesus took all the sin and suffering of humanity on himself, was this because God cannot look upon sin or was it because God was ashamed of what He had become? More precisely, was He and his entourage ashamed that they had no control over what humankind had evolved into?
It would be a revelation for me, an epiphany.
I pondered, in coincidence with a man who signed his emails "God Bless America," and in coincidence with other insightful experiences at this time, was my God program only for me in significant suffering with the offender? Was God and His Jesus a disappointment to me and my values propelling me into a status of exile?
It would be an epiphany for me to think of God in this way, to question His authority and plan.
Now I must go into my links of Christian music and unpublish or provide addendums of explanation. May all of you who sympathize with me provide me with the motivation to proceed.